I've been feeling sad a lot lately.
Maybe it's because it's cold or because I'm just simply sad.
Sometimes I feel a tightness in my heart.
However, perhaps as a reaction to that,
I had many opportunities to experience the warmth of others...
There were days when I was moved to tears by the kindness.
While I was spending my time like this, there was an announcement yesterday.
This time, we will be holding a 3-day Budokan concert with me
sandwiched between the two graduating members!
Watching the Under Live
was the time I got to see the best how idols shine during a live performance.
Even if they're dancing on the sidelines, if their performance is so eye-catching,
everyone can't stop watching them, or I could feel them capturing the hearts of everyone
in the venue with just their singing voice, and I learned what it means to create a live performance.
Of all the under members, I have the least experience with Under Live.
I feel like there are really high walls waiting for me and I have to overcome them.
But I will absolutely make it a success.
I want to make it a performance that makes people feel that
Nogizaka's live shows are amazing and that they're glad I was able to stand there.
I'll do my best, so please watch us
The two people beside me
have taught me a lot about performances and I learned a lot from watching them.
They made me want to dance like them, and they taught me the finer details of their moves.
I want to spend this time absorbing as much as I can,
making lots of memories, and sending them off in a wonderful way!
Kubo-san's graduation concert is coming up soon.
I'm excited to see how much fun it will be to see such an amazing senior perform live,
with amazing singing, dancing, talking, and expressiveness.
But at the same time, I'm feeling a growing sadness.
When I was first cast in a drama, I couldn't tell anyone and was feeling anxious,
but you spoke to me and that really eased my anxiety,
or when you mouthed to me that I looked cute when I parted my bangs during a live performance,
or when you tickled my back before the chorus of "Ohitorisama Tengoku,"
I treasure all of those little communications.
I want to send her off in the best possible way.
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By the way, I just got a haircut.
What do you think?...
When I entered the dressing room with the other members,
I felt a mixture of self-consciousness and the desire for no one to look at me lol
But those nervous feelings were pushed aside by so many great comments I received
It's so wonderful to have seniors, genmates, and juniors!
I was so happy.
The New Mao
My Feelings
As I write this, I haven't shown it to any of the fans yet,
so I wonder what they'll think. I hope they think it's cute (*^^*) lol
A side note: I have a particular memory of the Budokan.
I think it was the morning of my final audition.
I was taking a stroll around Tokyo with my mom,
and then the Budokan appeared right in front of us.
My mother said. "Maybe Mao-chan will stand there someday,"
I was excited so I took some photos.
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